I came home to a job of coaching high school lacrosse so that was a huge blessing!! But I didn't want to go home.... Like I was excited to see my family but I knew I was going to miss being a missionary and teaching the gospel and serving others more than I could imagine. And truth is that coming home from a mission is the hardest thing I have done up to this point in my life. It's different for everyone but I think some things are the same. When you get released and are supposed to take your name tag off, it will hurt. I felt such a whole in my heart just hearing my stake president say "you are now released" I immediately bawled. I couldn't take my own name tag off. My mom had to. And I held in my hands for like a good hour crying. And kept in my pocket for a while when I went places.
I think I didn't want to let go of it because to me it was more than a name tag. It represented everything I've done for 18 months, the hard work, the laughs, the love, the growth, and seeing myself and other come closer to Christ. But honestly I was also afraid that I would forget about how great my mission was or just move on. But no worries haahah you don't forget. Not a day goes by I don't think about it or talk about it or talk to people from my mission. Coming home is hard but it's a blessing. I have been able to work on myself spiritually more and it's amazing!! I still get to serve, teach and talk to people. Nothing is really different except for my calling.
One thing that I have loved about being home is really trying to figure out how the spirit speaks to me. And I had 2 really cool experiences. 1-my grandma who left the church when I was younger let me know that she wants to rejoin! And I felt so guided in how to respond and to help her along this journey! 2-I went to the temple on Saturday but didn't know which session I wanted to go to and I literally felt the need to get up out of bed right then and there and head to the temple. I've never had a feeling so strong. But I listened to it and I showed up and this friend that I had met 3 years ago when I lived down here was going through the temple for the first time and I got to go with her since the spirit helped me to get there at a certain time! It was such a special experience because I didn't know that she was there, and later she was telling her parents and fiancé how grateful she was for me and how I was her first friend she had in the ward. I never knew I had made that impact on her or anything. So it definitely blessed the both of us. God is just so good and so aware of what all of us need!!
God is full of tender mercies, I have had so many job opportunities and even though my schooling plans are different I fully believe it is what God needs me to do and one day I may understand why. He truly has a plan for each of us and I am so grateful for that. I also was able to go back to Louisiana for 2 months to spend time with the Leblanc's. I LOVE THEM. So grateful for the relationship I have with them and that they are like my family.
So when you come home from a mission or know some one who is coming home my best advice is to love and support them through what ever they may be feeling. Ask them about their mission, be specific, be interested in their stories and ask if they have pictures about it. Ask about the people that changed their life. Be there for them how ever you can because they are going through a ton of change and just trying to do their best.